There are moments when you feel uncertain..

                                                                    empty..
                                                                         confused..
                                                                                         ignored..
                                                                                             depressed..                
                                                                                                                     LOST !


It is the first time when i don't know how to explain my feeling, 'couse i don't understand them..
   I don't understand why  is this happening with me...but i'm fed up of everything..

   I'm afraid to lose the people from my life,i'm afraid to lose the family,to lose the friends..."friends"...might sound funny,but i'm not sure that i have friends..

        emm..only my best friend,who is more a virtual friend, is the reason that makes me smile sometimes..and who makes me angry,nervous,worried...even though he drives me crazy..anyway,i'll write about him another time..

  But the rest of the "friends" - mistake....i try always to listen them,to help them,to suport them..but they don't even know what is happen with me..
          ..somebody said that i exaggerate always..
               somebody-that this state is temporary..
                    ...but i'm not sure about it.
   Sometimes i think that they only make fun of me..I'm feeling used and unhappy...

It hurts when you are the person who says "sorry" always,who forgives everythings.. who passes over..
It hurts when nobody listen you..
It hurts when everyone is happy,except you..
It hurts when you feel that nobody care about you..
It hurts when everybody thinks that you are ok..
It hurts when every night you fall asleep crying..
It hurts when you keep your feelings inside..

Finally,this is my fault.It means that i don't deserve everything..

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