my day !

today is my day..today is chocolate's day..

today i want to be happy..
   today i will enjoy every minute..
      today i will value each piece of chocolate..






everybody loves chocolate , but not everybody loves chocolate like me..

    its flavor..its taste..makes my day more beautiful..makes my life better..






         Yeah , i can say that without chocolate,my life wouldn't be the same.

an intruder in my own world.

sometimes i think that everybody mockes me..
   maybe it's becouse i'm too naive..
      or maybe becouse i'm not a good person and i don't want to realise it..

    everytime when i begin to trust someone,that person disappoint me..
  it's hard to fight..
 it's hard to move on..
    

sometimes i think that i'm an intruder in my own world..

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honestly, these days i was thinking on you, my ex-best friend.

i thought that time heals all wounds..but fail..

  i thought i'd forget you..
..but i still hope..
    i still wait your message..
      i still miss you..
..and i'm afraid..
    i'm afraid that you forget me..
      i'm afraid that you regret our frendship..
          i'm afraid that all my thoughts will never leave me..and will destroy me..
..i need your help..
     your support..
         your words..

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I feel more alone than ever.

Confessions of a bulimic.

it's hard to share this with other people..

   but i need to tell  someone..

i was always concerned with the way i look..
   my body was my obsession..
i was trying to lose weight but fail..


     
    I am bulimic..or i'm at the beginning of this way..

     
         

           What means bulimia?

"Bulimia, also called bulimia nervosa, is an eating disorder. Bulimia is characterized by episodes of secretive excessive eating (bingeing) followed by inappropriate methods of weight control, such as self-induced vomiting (purging), abuse of laxatives and diuretics, or excessive exercise."
(source: http://www.medicinenet.com/bulimia/article.htm#what_is_bulimia)







I don't know..i don't know if i need help..
i don't know if i want anyone's help..
      for me this "disease" became a way of life..

  yeah , i feel guilty every day..

        I know maybe i'm a liar and hypocrite, 'couse i lie to everyone always, saying that i'm ok.                  
         actually, everybody lies..



But i smile everyday, hoping that one day i'll be happy,really happy.

Definitely it's the song of the day.
     and the video is amazing...such a beautiful love story..
           maybe it's becouse i've found myself..or i'm his reflection..we both are trying to find a person that we have lost...

"And if somebody hurts you, I wanna fight
But my hands been broken, one too many times
So I'll use my voice, I'll be so fucking rude
 Words they always win, but I know I'll lose"

Summer !

finally summer arrived..
   finally i finished the school year strong..
     i was waiting for you for so long..

      I will make this summer awesome..
   I will make this summer beautiful..
I will make this summes perfect..

I promise that this summer will be unforgettable..

P.S have a wonderful summer too.. still missing you, friend.
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